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EMDR: stands for Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing. I had to look that up, actually, even though I've been doing the therapy for a couple of months now. It's used for PTSD, among other things. According to the wikipedia article, it's somewhat more controversial than I'd thought. Huh. The idea is that traumatic memories have been improperly or incompletely processed and thus continue to be distressing and immediate and intrusive; by readdressing them with EMDR, one attempts to essentially re-remember them in an appropriate context - as something past, not something present and constant.
My particular therapist uses alternating tones in headphones to stimulate REM. I sit there and...remember. I talk about what I'm remembering, but usually only when she asks me direct questions. I cry a lot, because, well, I do. It's very unlike the endless hours of therapy I've had in the past, where I talked and talked and talked about various memories without it seeming to do much of anything except make me miserable. This has seemed to help me feel better, and I also feel somehow physically lighter. I was very low before doing this therapy - just crying all the time and feeling absolutely hopeless and miserable. My situation hasn't changed for better or worse in any other way, so I have to attribute the improvement to the therapy.
I also quit taking antidepressants a few months ago. They were making me fat and moody, which was certainly adding to the depression.
Anyway, all this to say that I've been in a better frame of mind, which is the only reason I've been able to post anything at all on LJ. However, it is still ridiculously difficult for me to go ahead and actually post.
Andrej Pejic: One of the prettiest imaginable pretty boys. The only way I could imagine finding Andrej more attractive would be if he had an identical twin.
I glommed onto images of this boy some months back, as this is much how I have pictured a character in a story I've been working on. Heaven forbid anyone look anything other than otherworldly gorgeous in a story, amirite?
He's 19, born in Serbia, now living in Australia, and he's been modeling in both menswear and womenswear shows this past season. He seems to wear a fair amount of what would be considered "women's" clothing in his day-to-day and that has no doubt contributed to the fairly significant number of media reports that identify him as transgendered or transsexual. To the best of my (obviously limited) knowledge, he doesn't identify as trans-anything, but it's interesting and a bit disheartening how determined even well-meaning people can be about cramming outliers into pre-existing boxes.
A nicely-done and fairly comprehensive profile from Aussie TV (and same video linked again here - I just want to make sure I "have" it, since I can't figure out how to download it.)
Related: Anyone know of a good .flv grabber? None of the ones I have tried seem to work.
My particular therapist uses alternating tones in headphones to stimulate REM. I sit there and...remember. I talk about what I'm remembering, but usually only when she asks me direct questions. I cry a lot, because, well, I do. It's very unlike the endless hours of therapy I've had in the past, where I talked and talked and talked about various memories without it seeming to do much of anything except make me miserable. This has seemed to help me feel better, and I also feel somehow physically lighter. I was very low before doing this therapy - just crying all the time and feeling absolutely hopeless and miserable. My situation hasn't changed for better or worse in any other way, so I have to attribute the improvement to the therapy.
I also quit taking antidepressants a few months ago. They were making me fat and moody, which was certainly adding to the depression.
Anyway, all this to say that I've been in a better frame of mind, which is the only reason I've been able to post anything at all on LJ. However, it is still ridiculously difficult for me to go ahead and actually post.
Andrej Pejic: One of the prettiest imaginable pretty boys. The only way I could imagine finding Andrej more attractive would be if he had an identical twin.
I glommed onto images of this boy some months back, as this is much how I have pictured a character in a story I've been working on. Heaven forbid anyone look anything other than otherworldly gorgeous in a story, amirite?
He's 19, born in Serbia, now living in Australia, and he's been modeling in both menswear and womenswear shows this past season. He seems to wear a fair amount of what would be considered "women's" clothing in his day-to-day and that has no doubt contributed to the fairly significant number of media reports that identify him as transgendered or transsexual. To the best of my (obviously limited) knowledge, he doesn't identify as trans-anything, but it's interesting and a bit disheartening how determined even well-meaning people can be about cramming outliers into pre-existing boxes.
A nicely-done and fairly comprehensive profile from Aussie TV (and same video linked again here - I just want to make sure I "have" it, since I can't figure out how to download it.)
Related: Anyone know of a good .flv grabber? None of the ones I have tried seem to work.