sunshine and trembling

[oiran]

It's a nice day. I sat on the back porch drinking coffee and eating raisin toast with the dog. There's apparently a recording session going on in the backyard stealth studio down the block, the air noisy with birdsong and the highly-processed strains of some sort of chick-singer country-pop. Not my sort of thing at all, but it still sounds better than anything I've heard on the radio in a while. I said I sat "with the dog," but the dog won't sit. The singing makes him nervous. The sound of cars passing our back fence makes him tremble. The dog two yards down, Taz, who lives to bark, was barking, and she must have been saying mean things to or about us. I had to be very stern three times to get the dog to pee, then nervously squat to shit.

The dog weighs 75 lbs. He runs as fast as a greyhound. He has the jaws of a Rottweiller. The petite, fluffy calico cat who likes to leave muddy footprints all across the hood of my car strolled slowly across the yard. I wouldn't have noticed, except the dog was whimpering and cringing. When I looked up, she stopped to smirk at us before continuing her slow, stately, mocking progress.

Because I'm still having a hard time focusing or articulating, I'm going to try another meme. I'm also avoiding vacuuming. I hate the sound of a vacuum. At any rate, this one is taken from ishtar79:

1. What is your favorite Fandom?
   Smallville. Clark and Lex having sex. I'm still dancing with the one I came with, though I do like to read a few others.



2. What fandom crossovers, if any, do you like to see in your fanfic?
   It's not really fandom crossover so much as actor crossover. I like multiple Rosenbaums. I also like Batman, but I'm (obviously) not particularly tied to any form of canon for Bats/SV crossovers.



3. What are your favorite pairings and why?
   Clark/Lex. It's pretty obvious why, isn't it? They're lovely, and they've got such chemistry, and the Hovering Cloud of Blackest Doom that Shadows Their Love makes it especially delicious.


I also read QaF Randy/Gale RPS (damn you, rhiannonhero), due South (mostly cesperanza's stories), and pretty much anything by shrift and runpunkrun, which means I read Hard Core Logo and Sports Night now, as well. I follow authors I like to new fandoms, basically.


4. Which pairing do you prefer to read? Both m/m and femme slash.
   Isn't this the same question? Um, obviously I enjoy the m/m. I'd love to read some good f/f fic, but I haven't come across a pairing I actually care about reading. I don't believe in Chloe/Lana. I don't believe Buffy/Faith (because I can't see Buffy going there, though certainly Faith would). There's probably good fic in both those pairings, but I'm just not able to suspend disbelief long enough to read it. Hey--is there any Faith/Drusilla out there? I could see that, maybe.



5. At Hogwarts or post Hogwarts?
   Huh? Completely removed from Hogwarts. There are actually fandoms without magic academies anywhere on the map.



6. What professions do you like to see your pair in and which do you hate?
   Um, Clark is a reporter and then he's Superman. Lex is suave and sexy and rich and also eventually evil. That's just how they are. I would not like to see them selling Amway.



7. What kinks do you like to see in fics?
   I always find this question a little confusing. What I consider my "kinks" are not kinky at all. I go through phases where I want to spend more time and focus considering some "ordinary" aspect of sex in more detail. Lately, it's mouths: kissing, licking, biting, sucking. How it feels to have a cock in your mouth, the weight on your lip and tongue; how you could bite, and how you can transfer your awareness of that power without actually having to bite. How it must feel from the other side. Tastes of various body parts, of skin and fluids. That's right now. I really haven't ever gotten to the point of wanting to see very specific costumes or play with specific toys or the like.
   
   I do like power plays, though. But I don't like to see them formalized; it strikes me as incredibly silly when people play at master/slave games and wear fetishy costumes specific to those roles. I much prefer something to develop organically and to exist in that moment.



8. What totally squicks you?
   I don't know. Child rape, I suppose. However, horrible as it is, I bet someone could write that well enough that I'd read it anyway. Clumsy writing totally squicks me. Boring sex scenes totally squick me.



9. Are you a happy ending person?
   When it's appropriate to a story, of course I want a happy ending. But what I want is the ending that is appropriate--even better if it wasn't what I expected, but is still absolutely right. There are a few pieces of otherwise fantastic fanfic that I think were pretty much nullified by inappropriately happy endings.



10. Hurt/comfort, angst, romance, AU. What is your favorite category/type of fic?
    I like well-written fic with characterization that is both true-to-canon and internally consistent; that is my favorite type of fic. I don't give a shit what category it falls into. Peeve: However, if it's got a character death warning, I usually won't read it because I'm so annoyed that they've given away the story.



11. Describe the ultimate fic, how it makes you feel, what it must have, etc.
    See above.

Identity crisis: I have just received an e-mail--from someone who is very likely in no mood to flatter me--disabusing me of the notion that I am operating in an out-of-the-way corner of fandom. The dreaded BNF sobriquet was applied. Part of me is going "Yay! People know I exist!" and the other part is going, "But they hate me!"

I am curious: Do the rest of you wonder (constantly, or nearly so) where, if anywhere, you fit in? Because part of me is perfectly well aware that I must be somewhat known in SV fandom if only measured by the number of comments I have been known to receive to posts here, but at the same time I feel dreadfully isolated. I think, 'Well, if I'm such a big deal, how come I'm not having more fun with it?' That's a rhetorical question.

Comments

[justblue0162.livejournal.com]

Because I could make a few points counter to that assertion.

There is absolutely no way for me to ask what those points might be without looking like an ass, so let's just say I'm...curious. And as for how I know, and how I would prove it... the difference in our flists and response to our posts in general indicates to me that more people are listening when you speak, and are interested enough in what you're saying to discuss it with you.

but also getting annoyed at the realization that some of the arcs being set up are likely not going to get any resolution before the series ends.

Ahh, the eternal heartache that is Firefly. Joss has promised that the movie will offer some payoff to loyal browncoats, while still being understandable to first-time viewers. *kicks FOX* Even if it wasn't what they were expecting from a Joss Whedon Show, I will never understand how they didn't recognize the quality of the writing and give it a decent chance.

[velvetglove.livejournal.com]

Well, you're a very good writer, and even though you haven't written a lot of stories, the ones you've written got recced all over the place. You have many friends online in more than one fandom. I probably am better known than you, but that doesn't necessarily mean that you're nobody; I didn't think that was the comparison. And even if more people know of me in SV fandom, I don't know what that means, whether it's good or bad or indifferent. We'd have to run some sort of popularity poll with a 1-10 scale and it would cause a huge furor and we'd be wanked, so I don't want to. So.

I can't imagine that the FOX people didn't look at the scripts and say, "Gee, this show will be kinda pricey to make." Having done so, you'd think they'd do what they could to help the show succeed.

I kind of hate River, but the way that Jayne makes fun of her helps me tolerate her a little bit. What is the fandom opinion re: River? And do I remember correctly that someone wrote Wash/Book????? It wasn't you, was it? Gross.

[justblue0162.livejournal.com]

*blinks* Thank you for that. But I can say all the same things about you, times five. I guess it's all relative. I'm not really willing to deal with the politics of it, so I think I'd rather be oblivious to whatever level of non-nobodiness I may have attained thus far.

I talk funny in your LJ sometimes.

I can't imagine that the FOX people didn't look at the scripts and say, "Gee, this show will be kinda pricey to make."

We're pretty much convinced they never looked at the scripts, period.

River grates on me sometimes too. In the group of people I talk to though, Jayne seems to get the most complaints. But I've never heard anyone say they wished him off the show or anything; he's a part of the crew, and we wouldn't have it any other way. River does become more interesting, but still frustrating because she's unresolved.

Wash/Book?!!? Ick!!! Wash is married!! To a woman that could kill me with her pinkie!! I'd never ever do that. Honestly, Jed, I'm shocked you'd even suggest it.

Book/Jayne, on the other hand... ;)