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oiranRumors of my death, etc., etc.
I know that most of my f-list is here because of the promise of dirty stories. I don't know why I'm feeling the need to announce this, but here goes: I doubt I'm going to be writing any more porn about gay teenage Superman. As for other categories of media-based derivative erotica (i.e., yay! cartoon dick!), I have a few things in the works, but I don't believe there's much of an audience for them. Still, I'll finish and post this YnM story that I was supposed to post for the 101 comm at the beginning of the month, and then I'll be "done" for the forseeable future.
So, instead of fanfic, I'm going to work on original stories, which have been virtually ignored for the last couple of years. Nanowrimo is coming and I have an idea I can work with this year. Unsurprisingly, it's got a whopping huge homoerotic component. As that comes pretty easily to me at this point, I'm confident the project will go more or less smoothly. Which is what I said last year, and my Nano attempt was a disaster--but that was last year.
I'm not leaving, per se. I'm keeping my journal. I'm not taking down my site. I don't hate Smallville, and I'm still watching it, but it doesn't really engage me this season. It's not a bad sign, necessarily, but it's a sign of something that my favorite character is Jason, and I'm enjoying Lana. I've got a bunch of ideas that I may or may not finish as fanfiction, but I'm in no hurry to do so.
I've spent two years being the most "popular" I've ever been in my life, and I've discovered I'm no good at it. I don't like the responsibility, and I'm terrible at meeting (or even recognizing) social obligations, as anyone who knows me well can attest.
I did think about deleting my journal but I'm pretty comfortable being "velvetglove" at this point. Rather, I'll leave it up to fannish people to leave me on their lists or not.
Mr. Glove outed me to some RL friends, which upset me more than I thought it would. They already knew I wrote porn, and that I wrote m/m porn. I just hadn't ever told them about the media/derivative aspect because that's what I find embarrassing. I can talk about cock all day long, so long as I don't have to mention that it's Clark Kent's cock that gets me all the positive attention online.
obadiah: No one knows why my dog was so ill. Pathology showed nothing. While all agree that this was probably a mycobacterium of some sort, there's no proof. Based on his symptoms, the most likely culprit should have been easily identified, but that wasn't the case. We're not feeling the closure like we'd hoped, though neither is our Beloved Veterinarian, which does provide a bit of perverse comfort.
We're going to wait until after our trip to New Orleans and then we'll pick up his ashes and…do whatever. I really don't know.
nola: As for Halloween in New Orleans, I have fangs. And dainty girl horns. And my tiara will finally have a public showing.
I know that most of my f-list is here because of the promise of dirty stories. I don't know why I'm feeling the need to announce this, but here goes: I doubt I'm going to be writing any more porn about gay teenage Superman. As for other categories of media-based derivative erotica (i.e., yay! cartoon dick!), I have a few things in the works, but I don't believe there's much of an audience for them. Still, I'll finish and post this YnM story that I was supposed to post for the 101 comm at the beginning of the month, and then I'll be "done" for the forseeable future.
So, instead of fanfic, I'm going to work on original stories, which have been virtually ignored for the last couple of years. Nanowrimo is coming and I have an idea I can work with this year. Unsurprisingly, it's got a whopping huge homoerotic component. As that comes pretty easily to me at this point, I'm confident the project will go more or less smoothly. Which is what I said last year, and my Nano attempt was a disaster--but that was last year.
I'm not leaving, per se. I'm keeping my journal. I'm not taking down my site. I don't hate Smallville, and I'm still watching it, but it doesn't really engage me this season. It's not a bad sign, necessarily, but it's a sign of something that my favorite character is Jason, and I'm enjoying Lana. I've got a bunch of ideas that I may or may not finish as fanfiction, but I'm in no hurry to do so.
I've spent two years being the most "popular" I've ever been in my life, and I've discovered I'm no good at it. I don't like the responsibility, and I'm terrible at meeting (or even recognizing) social obligations, as anyone who knows me well can attest.
I did think about deleting my journal but I'm pretty comfortable being "velvetglove" at this point. Rather, I'll leave it up to fannish people to leave me on their lists or not.
Mr. Glove outed me to some RL friends, which upset me more than I thought it would. They already knew I wrote porn, and that I wrote m/m porn. I just hadn't ever told them about the media/derivative aspect because that's what I find embarrassing. I can talk about cock all day long, so long as I don't have to mention that it's Clark Kent's cock that gets me all the positive attention online.
obadiah: No one knows why my dog was so ill. Pathology showed nothing. While all agree that this was probably a mycobacterium of some sort, there's no proof. Based on his symptoms, the most likely culprit should have been easily identified, but that wasn't the case. We're not feeling the closure like we'd hoped, though neither is our Beloved Veterinarian, which does provide a bit of perverse comfort.
We're going to wait until after our trip to New Orleans and then we'll pick up his ashes and…do whatever. I really don't know.
nola: As for Halloween in New Orleans, I have fangs. And dainty girl horns. And my tiara will finally have a public showing.
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Date: 2004-10-22 02:52 pm (UTC)I'm not surprised you want to leave the fannish writing behind you. It's been coming for quite some time, hasn't it? You're the most gifted writer I've had the privilege of meeting in fandom, and I would be disappointed if you never tried to put that talant to use in original fiction. I'm so looking forward to seeing what comes of that. And I'm still going to read your journal, no matter what.
I'm gradually heading the same way myself, I believe. I think that with The Same River, I said everything I had left to say about the canon versions of Clark and Lex. I am of course committed to the AU series I've started (I think a lot of people would turn up at my doorstep with tar and feathers if there wasn't any more Captured *g*), but other than that, it's doubtful if I'll ever write Smallville again. And apart from the couple of pieces I've started in other fandoms (notably the PotC thing that's currently eating my brain), I don't think I will end up doing any more fanfiction.
What I will do is sit down and write the original novel set in ancient Rome that's been gradually taking shape in my mind over the last year. I'm very, very excited about this project, and I think it's part of why there hasn't been any new fic from me for so long. I guess I've come to a point where I'd rather create my own universe than play with someone else's. Still there is this fear inside that no one will want to know me anymore if I don't post fiction. I'll have to try to be a more interesting person, I guess.
*rereads last sentence* Gah, I'm doomed!
(Speaking of the PotC project, the voices in my mind have been going: "Maybe I should ask Jed to beta this?" - "Are you nuts, she hated the movie!" - "But she always makes my stories better. And it isn't Disneyesque. Really." - "But she hated the movie!" Any thoughts on this?)
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Date: 2004-10-22 06:59 pm (UTC)One of the many nice things about Captured is that it could be made into original fic without much trouble, or incorporated into something larger, since the Clark character's powers are mostly of being hot and sweet ;) I would be joining the angry mob on your doorstep, so you probably should add to it at some point.
As for PotC, I read your Sparrington and loved it. I'd happily beta PotC for you because I liked those characters - I just didn't like the boring movie they found themselves in. So please do send it to me when you want an opinion.
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Date: 2004-10-23 06:08 am (UTC)Captured is a lot like original fic, you're right about that. Though my original Roman novel is something quite different. For one thing, it has a female lead, which is a first for me. But then again, there is a slash aspect to it, of course. *g*
I'm so glad you liked the Sparrington fic - I didn't really think you would, since the fandom didn't seem to interest you. I'll send you the new fic sometime next week, and you can take it to pieces for me. It has potential, I think, but could probably be better.